The lines are getting blurry, I can’t see them straight If I’m going to die tonight, I guess that’s just my fate I’m feeling fucking crazy, nothing is making sense Whether or not I’ll save you, I am still on the fence I’ve gotta get out, get out of my own brain I need to leave quickly if I'm ever to stay sane I’ve gotta get out, get out of my own brain I need to leave quickly if I'm ever to stay sane I swear I’ve done it, I’ve done all that I can Now I’m seeing everything and I just don’t understand The faint screaming is in the air, setting the scene to come Ignoring the voices heard, telling me I should run But I swear this looks good from here Can’t push forward if I’m scared Can’t push forward if I’m scared Can’t push forward if I’m scared I’ve gotta get out, get out of my own brain I need to leave quickly if I am ever to stay sane I’ve gotta get out, get out of my own brain I need to leave quickly if I am ever to stay sane There was a fire in my eyes, that I’d never felt before So much ire until I realized, we were going to end this war I hid myself away, until the light of day We dropped bodies and we dropped bombs And exploited those who did us wrong And we buried them for good measure, good measure We buried them for good measure I’ve gotta get out, get out of my own brain I need to leave quickly if I'm ever to stay sane I’ve gotta get out, get out of my own brain I need to leave quickly if I 'm ever to stay sane

Two hours til tomorrow comes at last All the shit I wish I could leave in my past It's chained to me like an anchor pulling me into the mud Covered in blood, sweat, and tears and more blood Putting down the bottle just long enough to sleep Picking it back up at the end of the week This kind of temperament will spell my doom Don't want to hear another person in my room Where are we going, I don't know I don't know Come on we're leaving, let's go let's go It looks like the pipes are frozen once again Who gives a shit it's the next renter's problem One day they'll find me eventually Holed up with some garage rock band in Mississippi You'll try to remind me of the glory days of Philly All I remember's the time I got mugged for that smoothie I wish I was kidding, but that's a true story It's why it's hard for me to believe there was ever glory Where are we going, I don't know I don't know Come on I'm heading I'm heading back home One minute my life flashes right before my eyes All the good and the bad times being romanticized I'm a shitty friend, and I don't act like I don't know this The main reason I left was because I was sure nobody'd notice I peaked when I was like 13 years in Pretty sure that was the most popular I've ever been I never understood the point of coming home to die But now I get it, I've come to be alive Where are we going, I know I finally know I'm glad I made it, I made it back home.

This will hurt you, more than it'll hurt me That kinda thing comes with the territory There's lightning in this brainstorm It's not too late for you to change course Unconscious on a park bench, wondering if it would hurt less Should I confront this Some alcohol would help it Clean the wounds clean the wounds Inside and out Help the pain help the pain Inside and out Take the leap, have some faith I would never drop you Not again after last time I never though you'd Give it up give it up break it down Why should we follow our dreams when they're nightmares I'm not a fan of that phrase I'd rather follow what I know will be there There's screwdrivers and antidepressants that way Clean the wounds clean the wounds Inside and out Help the pain help the pain Inside and out

Black cat, sunshine, storm clouds intruding in Silent judgement, holy being Sharp teeth puncturing, loathsome fear in control One wrong movement, constant battle for the soul Harsh rain falling, the pitter patter of the steel roof up above Thunder rumbling, grumbling, and pouring out its love Black cat's watching, peering from the shadow of the street Flea-ridden, scabbed up, and waiting for the finale The skies are grey, the skies are grey And that's ok, just for today Maybe we'll borrow sun from tomorrow And we'll keep our sanity this way Strung up strung out, searching endlessly for purpose Contemplating the measurable hopelessness Wishing right now that your existential flame's not burning out Black cat's on your lap, purring and circling about Desperate times don't always equate desperate measures Why act impulsively, it may affect you forever The clouds are parting, sunlight is now beaming through And divine beings won't ever just be judging you The skies are grey, the skies are grey And that's ok, just for today Maybe we'll borrow sun from tomorrow And we'll keep our sanity this way

We're all together in this Is it worth being nervous We're cleaning our way through this mess Feigning shock at deplorable shit We're ascending the tower Meeting the higher powers But they've admitted that they hate us Presenting offerings of flowers We worshiped for hours They wish that they hadn't created us This spire has crumbled and fell We plummet towards Hell And the powers that be remain comfortably up in their shell But now the clocks have stopped The falling seems to be leading Straight into armageddon Is this all I get I'll just cease to be No ominous or preposterous godly visits That just doesn't seem fair to me I repeat selfishly As the blackness is quickly Absorbing and absolving me Too many painful memories All horrible and guilty Displayed like LCD Projectors through the chasm Of darkness where I'm thrashing It all just reminding me That I am literally Better than nothing So I drift and I never speak While these memories repeat And I'll repent internally To the Gods that regrettably Created this mess of hypocrisy With neurons that fire improperly And a hear that is full of anxiety This apocalypse has seen Only a single casualty And I'm doomed to drift infinitely With the person I hate most...

I'm eating lunch in my car Just avoiding everybody The last thing that I want to hear From anyone is that they are sorry Don't be sorry for my life Unless you actively try to hurt It's ok that I'm not ok I'll get better soon eventually But darling I have still not gotten over you Or your beautiful eyes like storms And God knows I would obviously take you back With your radiance that I so adore Until then, Until then Let me wallow in myself and loneliness Until then, Until then These cliches pile on me and break me in And I would throw away everything For just one more evening with you We could go back to paradise Or just talk all night like we used to And I never planned to be Another lovesick musician But goddammit If I'm inspired by this awful division But it's too real and I'd rather feel myself Deep in your arms tonight I hope you can learn not to hate yourself And see yourself through my eyes Until then, Until then I shall deal with my emotions pent in Until then, Until then I will wait to be your servant again

Turn off my cellphone I'm going off the grid Which is for me eating Cheetos in my bed Watching movies and drinking chocolate milk alone I guess it's my antisocial tendencies That are keeping me from my friends And the things that could be helping me get by Oh, but it will get better they say Step by step, day by day, inch by inch, and play by play But I'm scared that I might not have that kind of time So what'll you do When all that you love slowly drifts away from you And there's no-one you can blame except yourself? When you fall And you bleed Will you need me To be the one that keeps you operating? 'Cause if so then I'll get comfortable So cut the bullshit and show me that you mean it When you tell me that you'll love me until you die 'Cause you're the only thing I need To help keep me alive for the next few years or so 'Cause you're the meanest When you know that I need it And the worst thing that you could ever do to me Is leave me wondering If you still love me too

The moon as high as it can be No more lights work on this street I've already hit 90 Becoming a slave to the speed There's a light on in the car I haven't made it very far Keep driving, please god, keep driving It's as cold as it'll ever get I never got the heat in the car fixed Popping pills hoping it'll help it Help the pain in my skull as it splits There's a light on in the car I haven't made it very far Keep driving, please god, keep driving My destination's to the west I'll take the next exit to the left They keep asking me what's next I don't even know yet I don't even know yet There's a light on in the car I haven't made it very far Keep driving, please god, keep driving

Lay back, deep breath The flickering lanterns often fade by night Hard day, relax We can't drift away as long as we hold tight Torrential pour These cataclysmic showers pull us hard Hang on and laugh As the current mellows out and takes us far Smooth stone in hand Crack the skulls of my enemies with it Dream like view The stars above are beautifully lit Who knows, who knows Just how long we may be drifting here The ripples fade Maybe the end is drawing near The hard year's here and there's nothing left to fear It's not just us Eventually we all wade through this pool But will we drown Or will we kick and thrash and live like fools And will we float free There's a chance we'll end up in captivity Where we might thrive But we'd rather be dead than ever see Rest with the tide Let the current slowly rock you away Where will you go, who knows But I'll be drifting with you if that's ok It won't all be great This path could be littered with anguish Is it worth the risk As long as I'm with you I know it is The hard year's gone and I'm slowly moving on...